Sunday, August 26, 2012

"He Restoreth My Soul:" Following the Fisherman-Shepherd


“The Lord is My Shepherd, I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures, he leadeth me beside the still waters; He restoreth my soul.” –Psalm 23

Yesterday evening was a perfect day for a final summer run with my Dad. After booking it around Southfork Circle, I climbed the front grassy bank in exhaustion only to find myself in the midst of glorious beauty. With the calm 70 degree summer breeze blowing against my moistened face, I gazed at the hazy valleys, hills, and mountains which reflected the last rays of the setting sun.  Sitting next to my Dad, smelling Mom’s fried chicken through the opened window, my soul was at rest.
             It seems odd that my summer has brought me to this place of restoration and peace. One might glance at my summer calendar and completely deny the possibility of rest and regeneration. Upon arriving in America in May, I immediately began an Anatomy and Physiology course at the local community college. Weekends were filled with trips to D.C. or Kentucky and the receiving of friends and family. With the conclusion of that class commenced studying for the GRE, squeezed between trips to visit wonderful friends and family in Kentucky and then Nebraska. Next was two glorious, but exhausting weeks of Joni and Friends Disability Family Retreats. Finally, after taking the GRE, I was able to focus on preparing for the numerous classes I’ll be teaching this coming year, while exploring options for future graduate work. My philosophy this summer, when it came to deciding between different activities and trips, was, “DO IT ALL!” What can I say, I’m my mother’s daughter. 
But how is it that now, upon reflecting upon my summer, I find my heart and mind revived, refocused, and at peace? Ultimately, I think it’s because through the multitude of activities, the God of Peace ushered me into His presence.  To be near God: is there any greater good, any higher aspiration? I am so thankful that He revealed Himself to me in such multifarious ways. He showed me his awesome creativity and precision through studies of the Human Body. He reminded me of the power and comfort of His love through rekindled friendships. He used my family to show me His grace. He used the lives of those whose disabilities have stripped away any semblance of glory-obstructing pride to show me his very face.  I saw his majesty in panoramic views of the Appalachian Mountains. I felt His pleasure in hours of laughter, singing, and dancing. He allowed me to bask in his presence in church worship, Toyota worship, and front-porch worship. I felt Him. He was with me. And I fell more in love with Him.
As I sit in the Houston airport, anticipating another year in Nigeria, I pray that-- like Moses whose face shone after being with the Almighty—my life will reflect the glory and grace which I beheld this summer. There is much work to be done this year—many lesson plans to write, many lectures to give, many papers to grade—but the greatest work that I have the opportunity to participate in is reflecting the soul-nourishing light of a loving God. “If I speak in the tongues of men and angels, but have not love, (and surely this love is only possible in the presence of the one who is named Love), I am nothing.”
I’m reminded of the waters which Ezekiel sees flowing from the House of God:

“These waters…go toward the sea, being made to flow into the sea, and the waters of the sea becoming fresh. It will come about that every living creature which swarms in every place where the river goes, will live. And there will be very many fish, for these waters go there and the others become fresh; so everything will live wherever the river goes. And it will come about that fishermen will stand beside it; from Engedi to Eneglaim there will be a place for the spreading of nets. Their fish will be… very many.” –Ezekiel 47

My prayer is that I might be part of that river, whose source and energy is found in the House of God, who, being made fresh, brings life. As I cross the ocean today, I pray that I carry with me the soul-restoring peace that I have found in the presence of God this summer. I pray that, as a result of the living water that I bring, many will be brought to the Fisherman-Shepherd who promises goodness and mercy all the days of our lives.

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